Time To Catch Up

Woahh I've been off here for a long time it gets insanely busy with my two baby boys and I'm so excited that I Can't sleep... Did I mention We are going to Honduras in less than a week? Wow so much packing & planning that i have to do.. Ugh don't even want to think about the airport or plane.. jiji But I am Oh So excited about finally meeting my other family in Honduras Also I need to discover my self I say discover myself because there is a piece of me missing.. I'm Going to find out who what why & When did my birth parents gave me away I have no hate or resent for them just question that shall be answered so then when my sons are grown they will know exactly were they are from.. Life has really been good these days a bit tough but hey no one ever said it was easy and as long as God is by my side everything will be all right I live for him and adore him That's enough for now ♥ Jessy

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It's Better To Cherish What We Have Today Than Regret What We Didn't Cherish Yesterday

I Have Always Thanked God For Being So Wonderful I Will Never Ever Stop Giving Him Thanks Because Of Him I Am What I Am Today And For That I Give Thanks He has Giving Me For Everything I Have Searched For The Love,Guidance And Security I Never Had Strengh To Reach Out For Without Asking He Shined His Heavenly Light Over My Broken Heart And Healed It Gave Me The Strenght To Get Up And Try Again He Has Blessed Me In So Many Ways And I Have Most Of The Time Given Thanks But Even Then When I Forget He Does Not Thank You God You Have Been There Through My Worst Time I Have Called For You And You Holy Father Have Listend To My Wounded Soul And Only You Have Been Able To Heal It Thank You Father You Have Given Me A Wonderful Fiance Who Tries To Understand But Sometimes Fails I Call Your Name So You Can Give Him The Knowledge To Understand Me And You Do You Never Leave My Side Thank You Father You Have Been There To Save Me Warn Me From My Mistakes And Also Been There When I Make A Goal Happen You Father Have Givien Me Two Beautiful Boys That I Will Care For Till The Day I Die I Love Them I Have You As My Guide To Show Me How To Be A Better Mother You Know I Am Not Perfect And You Love Me Anyway And I Hope God To Be More Like You In Every Way, Why? Because One Day Those Little Boys Are Going To Grow Up And One Day Say ' Mommy I Want To Be Like You' And I Want To Show Them Love & Faith And God Your Wondrful Grace Among Us Your Children And With That I Will Say One More Time
Thank You Father

The Ugly Truth Of A Teen Moms Days

These Days I Have Not Been On My Blog. The Reason Why Is Because I Have Been Having Some Rough Times Our Car Broke Down And Thank God For Angelic Friend Blanca She Went And Picked Us Up And Helped With Our Busy Day It's Just Been A Stressful Time For Me And My Blog Has Just Been On The Back Burner But Now Things Are Starting To Look Up And Staring To Get Better The Last Thing I Loose Is My Faith In God And I Have Been Closer To Him SO Much I'm A Bit Of A Positive Person But Then Somethings Happen And You Just Have To Look The Other Way Life Is Hard It Really Is But I Have My Two Boys Who Brighten My Day When I'm Going Down And When I See Them I Feel Better There Is No Greater Happiness Than Them I try To Be My Best Every Day And That Is All That Counts I Am The Best I Can Be And With Every Day That Goes By I'm An Even better One

When I Have A Rough Day I Look At Them And The Stress Melts Away

When everything goes wrong I have two perfect solutions to make the day straighten up. That is my babies Jaret & Jayden But Right Now Jaret Is The Main One He does all these silly thig He Is so silly I gave him some marshmallows and what does he do with them he chews them leaves them all sticky and tries to style his own hair ( The Marshmallows Are Gel In His Eyes) While He Was Doing That I'm trying to find Jayden a change of clothes while his screaming his heart out when I'm done with Jayden I Look over to Jarets High Chair And I see He styled His hair while I was Out ( Gosh He s not Even A Teenager Yet) But since Jayden Was In his bouncer I took Jaret into The Room And Took Off Everything And Placed Him In The Tub Washed His Beautiful Hair And Then Rinsed Him Off After That I Let Him Play With Me Watching Of Course I Had My Camera Handy So I Took Some Nice Pictures I'm Not To Happy With My Camera Quality But Hey It takes Pictures Lol Here Are Some

Jaret Right Now Is Going Through he Stage Of Jealousy

But Mommy Always Is There To Give Him Love 

Jayden Well He Is Jayden He he He Sleeps Eats Plays Then Sleeps Again It's So Funny but Soon I'm Going To Be Wishing He Slept More!

Mommy Loves You Both!! You Both Hold Me Together When Every One Else Tries To Break Me

Jaret My Inspiration

I Had The Most Wonderful weekend with my boys all of them my son's and fiance Jaret was having a blast at this little indoor park it was wonderful

Here He Was On The Slide 

Jaret Is the most wonderful gift God has given me I hope he can grow up to be a healthy happy boy I don't ask for more I'm A Bit Sentimental Today I Have No Idea Why But I Need To Let My Son Know I'm His Mommy And I Love Him I Will Always Be Here For Him

Sweet Dreams My Love

For All Of Those People Who Look Down On Teen Moms

I am so sick people looking down on teen mothers mean really people have the nerve to come to my face and ask me "Oh such a cute baby but you are only a baby yourself" They have no idea That gives them no right to intrude in our life I mean a mothers have it hard but teen mothers have it a bit tougher why you ask it's because Us as teen really haven't lived life and think life as it is not as it really is as life that you have a future ahead of you as teens we take one day as that's all that matters but there is more to that a lot more.... and us we girls in general are sentimental,loving caring,we cater to every need, every feeling that is just are nature we are born to be wives mothers sisters as wives we have to be there for our husband as mothers we have to be there to cheer up sad faces kiss boo boos as sister we are a best friend to give advice for the future but as teen we quickly have to be come what we are mothers over those 9 months that we have carried that baby we know what we are way before that child is born we were born to mother and a little kick now and then remind us of what we are becoming we get better everyday that goes by and by the time that baby arrives to the world that young teenager has flowered into a grown woman Just as a woman with no experience knows that she has to be everything for that child the same rule applies to us teenage mothers Age makes no difference in what kind of mother we are destined to be

The First Night With My Little Guy

The First Night I Had With My Baby Boy Was So Confusing You Have No idea!! OK Yes I Was Still With My Boyfriend Only He Was Working Out Of Town Ugh bad Start already well newborns don't really do much but whew they sure do poop you out (Pun Intended) Ha ha well I already had this little schedule going right he would wake up I would change his diaper, feed him, burp him and then  he would fall asleep again well it's not easy to get from your much needed sleep to a crying hungry irritated baby trust me I know Well I had no help what so ever and my mom was next door it was crazy I did not want to bother her plus she never was good with babies so it was 3:30 A.m  I Had To get up get the bottle ready then get his little onesi off then the diaper ugh where did I put that diaper??? Ooh here it is Argh He Peed every where UHF take off everything while I'm doing this he is crying his head off but I can't let him drink his bottle or even let him sleep covered in pee OK he just finished his bottle now just put him down gently on the mattress..just when I put him down he cries as if in pain I quickly pick him up the crying stops try to put him down again he starts screaming again so I let him fall asleep in my arms an hour later the screams start up again he is fed changed not too cold or hot whats wrong babe? Another hour goes by Oh My God What's wrong I get up and start walking the halls with him by this time I'm crying with him too I start to softly pat his back then comes the sound he was waiting to let go of for so long *BURP* yep then he peacefully fell asleep Gosh Loll I was SO freaked Out But now it takes a whole lot more for me to get worried to tears

The Difficuties I Went Through During My Pregnancy

Ok So A Few Hours Ago I Had The Itch To Write But Had no Clue On What

But Now I Know...Ok So I Got A Few questions on How I Was I Able To Go To School? Well I Was In High School When I Got Pregnant Wow You Have No Idea The nasty Looks I Got Each Day With My Teachers But There Was One Teacher Who Never Looked At Me Different And She Was The One Who Made My Nightmare Into A Better Place But With Everyday That Passed It's Like The News Spread So Annoying Well They Even Gave A Big Deal That I Could Not Wear The Black Tights Under My Maternity Blouses Because They Were Too Tight I'm Like Hello Who Is Going To Look At Me When I Have A Bowling Ball Under My Shirt...I Got Criticized On How Irresponsible I Was But Hey They Sure Did Like My grades I always Had Good Grades Always Quiet But I Was The One Whose Name Was Always Mentioned In The Teachers Lounge Or At The Teacher Lunch Table Gosh It's Just So Hard I Got Home And I Told My Boyfriend I Can't Take All This Any More He Said He Understood If I Wanted To Quit But I said Nah I'm A Strong Girl I'm Going To Tough It Out...Well I Really Did Try My Best But They Also Tried There Hardest To Get Me Out Of That School Extra Home Work The same Story From Every Teacher Ohh But I Expected So Much More Of Your History Paper Like Gosh What Do These People Want From Me?? Well The Drama ,The Extra Work, The Fatigue Finally Broke Me But I Knew I Needed To Keep Studying Keep My Focus On My Education And I Did I Decided To Drop Out And As Soon As I Did I Dragged Fat Butt To A Community College Where I Signed Up To Do My GED Online And Now I Only Need Some Final Test To Receive My GED...This Goes To All Those Girls Who Get Nasty,Ugly Discriminating Words ,Looks Whatever I Get You I Really Do Why Because I Went Through It My Self